Just why

Just why, when I try to forget, you keep coming

Just why, when I try to change for good, you are there

Just why, when i try to deny this feelings, you appeared from nowhere

Just why, when I already think that I am strong enough to forget, you start to text me consistently

Just why โ˜น๏ธ


Fangirling post #p2

It’s already 5 years guys!!!! I am proud of you. Congratulations!!! Yehet! ๐ŸŽ‰

Thank you for always give me strength during my hard days with your songs. Thank you for not giving up and keep going! You always inspired me to become better. Thank you for become my inspirations! Thank you for always be there! 

We have gone through so many things. You guys already have 11 albums in the row and I always hoping it will never stopped only at 11. Continue to grow, legends! I will always support you, especially you, Do kyung soo. Saranghae ๐Ÿ™†๐Ÿผ

Together, lets cherish and makes a new memories! I will always be there, rooting for you, wherever you are. EXO! Saranghaja! We are one! 

Happy 5th year anniversary, EXO! Saranghae โญ๏ธ

Fangirling post #p1

After a longgggg time, Winner is comeback with singles, “fool” and “really really”!!!!! 

I just cried. ๐Ÿ˜ญ

I am so excited! 

Even without nam tae hyun ๐Ÿคง, they did a great job though!

That was really nice to see them comeback. I miss mino so much. 

The concept was so cool โญ๏ธ

Okay bye.

Eye candy ๐Ÿ™Š

I don’t know why, but I love to see man who wearing a full attire of malay traditional’s clothes which is “baju melayu”. I always feel blessed when scrolling my insta feed during eid. ๐ŸŒEveryone looks so dashing and handsome. They looks more proper in that clothes. I think only “baju melayu” can put a magic to the person who wear it. 

Isn’t he looks more handsome? ๐Ÿ˜
I really hope kyung soo will wear “baju melayu” one day. Maybe I will specially made it for him as a present. ๐Ÿค”
* Immediately register for sewing class*

ESCAPE PLACE ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

If I am a fugitive, I will go to China! There’s a big population there which makes me difficult to be found by cops. It is also cheaper than other country to get a fake identity and live just like a residence. Of course, it is near with Malaysia, so, I can cut my budget. Living as a fugitive, needs me to live with what I have at that moment. Every penny is count. ๐Ÿ’ธ

China also huge to discovered. As a fugitive, I cannot stay at one place in a long time. I will try to enjoy myself by travelling all over China. From Shanghai, Guangzhou, Beijing and Hong Kong, there are too many places! I will visit Taiwan too! Taiwanese actors are so handsome! *melting*

Oh gosh.

I am so dead if cops found this post! ๐Ÿ’ฃ

Its sounds like I am enjoying my time while being fugitive there. But who cares. As long as you can enjoy your life, why you need to bother and worry about what will happen next. Moreover, you are not in fault. Just enjoy your life to the fullest! You are living today but who knows about tomorrow.

Just my two cents. ๐Ÿ˜‰

My definition of success

For me, you already achieved success when you already getย what you desired to have. If you want happiness, everyone that already happy with their life, they already achieved their target and be a successful person.

You can consider a crazy person already success, since they always being happy. No need to worry about their life. If you take my definition of success. Lol.

But, we know that every human in this earth never feel satisfied with what they have. If today, they said their target is to have a big house for their family, then they achieved their target. They already be a successful person, but then, they will desire to have something else and it will be a continuous process and will end only when they are dead.

We cannot blame our instinct to always makes a new target since we believe we have a room of improvement everyday and that makes us strive harder everyday to get what we want.

However, the road of success will never be easy. It is a rough path. There will be many turbulences. And yet, there will be a person who will give up in the middle of the road. There will be a person who keep on going in that path.

So, for me, a successful person is the one who never give up!ย They will keep on going to get what they want. They also believe that all turbulences are only a test from Him and always gladly to receive that test. They believe all tests only a learning process that Allah want to teach them, to become a stronger and a better person.

Wondrous is the affair of the believer for there is good for him in every matter and this is not the case with anyone except the believer. If he is happy, then he thanks Allah and thus there is good for him. If he is harmed, then he shows patience and thus there is good for him.

Source: แนขaแธฅฤซแธฅ Muslim 2999, Grade: Sahih

To turn into a new leaf is not easy, it’s really need a patience and passion. ย So, guys, never mocking others when they try to change for good. Your words can kill a person. Seriously, bear this in mind.

Hence, if you ask me, if I already met a successful person, yeah!

To all people that still living happily and always strive towards their target, this post is for you guys! Thank you for still living beautifully without giving up! Fighting! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป

My list things to do ๐Ÿ“

There are many lists that I want to write, but let’s make it short.

  1. Makes my own time capsule, so my generation can see it even after I already dead. That’s my present for them. Pity them, only get to have  a time capsule instead of wealth. Hohoho.
  2. Travel all around the world. I just covered only a few of European countries just now. Need to discover more. Korea, Japan, Bosnia, Spain, Iceland, Croatia and Turkey are in my top priority bucket list after performing my umrah or Hajj. If can, I want to cover all streets, regions, districts, and countries. May Allah grant me a good health and money by then.
  3. Visit England once more time. Maybe in next 10 years. Just to visit my ex-university and maybe my lecturers? I bet it will be during my university’s anniversary. Then there will be a lot of activities. It will be fun to reminiscing all the memories while being there. Or maybe, I will sent my children to study there. #proudastonian
  4. Skydiving! I have tried only a parasailing before and I felt it is not thrilling enough, it’s only makes you feel like a bird on the top of the sea. So, I want to challenge for skydiving (of course, with a professional guide) to makes my adrenaline rush. How wonderful it is!
  5. Further my studies. Still thinking either to take ACCA, CIMA or master. Or maybe I should take all three? So greedy, Sakeenah!
  6. Join volunteering abroad program. Give benefit to others will be a huge satisfaction to me!
  7. Learn others language. I need to recap arabic that I learn during school days. Sigh. Already forgot most of them. I would like to try japanese and hangeul! ๐Ÿ™‡๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ
  8. And of course, all my lists will be done together with my family. Together doing what I want is a blessing.